I at last did it. I told my husband I need a divorce online here ().
I've really disclosed to him this multiple times previously, however at that point he'd demand that our marriage is acceptable/fault me for not putting forth an attempt/cry regarding how much his life would suck without me, and I'd cave. Since I actually love him, and I would prefer not to hurt him. However, I additionally can't be with him any longer.
Today he straight up asked, and I came clean with him. I need out. No really vacillating, no more "attempting to make it work" that simply sums to gritting my teeth and enduring business as usual. We're finished.
He nestled into the floor in the fetal situation for some time. I just let him lie there. I didn't have the foggiest idea what else to do.